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Sunday, February 27, 2005
God i am crying right now... i don't know why can't seem to figure out my feelings can't even think of the cause of this. is it me or him? or is it both? feel like i felt this a long time now since we got together i have questions in mind neither me nor him can't answer jelousy, envy, pride are all these in me? or maybe he's just too friendly to anybody he see but everytime...i ask questions he always got angry and that confuses me now we're not talking my phone's not ringing i found this blog reaching anybody can you help me?
 
Friday, February 25, 2005
 two important things found inside my bag...
can't live without them...
its like i'm married to them...
;)
Friday, February 18, 2005
a friend of mine is going to marry soon and i didn't know about it 'til now!!! grabe kaayo bai...sakit kaayo akong dughan nga wala jud ko niya giingnan man lang na kaslon na siya. as in na lain jud ko niya. a common friend told me na kaslon na siya karon lang jud...nitawag daw siya sa ilaha (mga prens nako na nagstay in one place) to surprise them sa iya news and all... pero according to this common friend, wala man pud sila na surprise.. pero hello!!! we've been friends since college. and we're that close sauna!!!! as in very very cloase...kung pede na lang didto ko matulog sa ilaha. I treat him as a brother na gyud! as my second brother...pero ngano wala man ko niya giingnan??? he didn't even call or txt man lang for me to know that he's getting married. as in, nasakitan gyud ko when i heard the news...sa lain pa gyud nako nadunggan. ok. there's no point for me to do this (or say this). but nasakitan lang jud ko. i thought he's my friend, brother or what..huhuhu...i wanna shout now. i don't want to talk to him anymore. i don't want to see his face anymore. huh! i am soooo sad...
Thursday, February 17, 2005
a typical day. No dates, no window shopping, no cleaning of the house. I slept all morning and woke up at around 1130H. Bought some food somewhere (i loved karindirias) for lunch 'cause my boyfriend is coming over just to eat lunch. Actually, we've been eating lunch together since last monday. sweet eh? well it's not because we miss each other everyday but because he's on a training right now and the location was near our haus. It is about 5-min drive from their spot. After our 30-minute lunch (yes, the shortest one ever). :) He had to go back quickly so no talking after we ate kanina. Just a simple kiss on my forehead and gone. I cleaned the table and washed all the dishes. Then went to the other room to watched a tv show or something. W ala talaga akong makitang magandang show na panonoorin, so i went back to my room and just sit down. I have nothing to do talaga, so went to sleep (again!) the whole afternoon na naman...i woke up exactly 7pm kase nagugutom na ang tiyan ko. So i ate and chatted with my roommates for a while. Then here i am telling you my story. This is my typical day, when i'm not at work and no plans for going out.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
an overnight stay in the office was my type of thing to do lately. yeah...i stayed here in the office overnight! just to finish my program testing. and it's worth it! i never got the chance to do program testing in a regular shift (8am-5pm), and i just needed time to figure out what's the problem in this lotusscript i did. So i stayed here and did the things i need to do. program, test, edit program, test and alas! i finally made it. and got the output i wanted. i just finished the test and i'll wait for further instructions from my boss..worth it talaga that i overstayed here at the office. i'll do this every tuesday before my day-offs...:)
Monday, February 14, 2005
remember my post last time about not planning my valentines day...well it turned out great...hehehehe ever since naman talaga, i do not plan on a valentines day celebration. and it really turned out good for me. 12midnight - i was watching notting hill with my dormmate aimz. well, we don't have cable so local channels na lang. oh , i really love the song she, and i really love julia's acting! aimz was slightly asleep when the movie ended. so i was the one who turned off the lights na lang. then i went to my room for a valentine sleep...hehehe 1am - im always awakened by my fone's ringtone, but this time i was awakened after the 15th messages received. that was a break huh...and all of a sudden, my mind just kept saying ' you should reply...u should reply...' 11am - yeah. it's too late to woke up. but i had to. cause my bf is coming over the haus. txted me to prepare for lunch. he wanted to have lunch with me! you hear that??? yeah he did....hehehe 12pm - my bf just got to the haus. we had our lunch together. i didn't cooked the food. i just bought it from smwhere. but we had the best lunch ever! cheap vegetables and a zest-o juice. wow! it was healthy... 3pm - went to work. manga on my table. given to us by jovy, from zambales....and a food from karen too. it sooo nice to think you have a generous officemates...hehehe 7pm - at work pa rin. but bf called to check if ive eaten na. hmmm...soo wonderful noh...even he's not there with me, tried to call pa rin....luv him much! well, that was my valentines day..isn't it an ordinary day for me?! felt soo great....
Saturday, February 12, 2005
I just read an email from a friend which, by the way, remembered me kahit 4 years na kaming di nagkikita . whew! such a wonderful friend, noh!
well, this will touch your heart, read on!
There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park.
Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.
Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and watched the people go by.
She never tried to speak.
She never said a word.
Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.
The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the little girl would still be there.
Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyes.
Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl.
For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone.
As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress.
It was grotesquely shaped.
I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to speak to her.
Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make a step toward assisting someone who is different.
As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my intent stare.
As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly.
She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.
I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk.
I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello."
The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare into my eyes.
I smiled and she shyly smiled back.
We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty.
I asked the girl why she was so sad.
The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm different."
I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.
The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."
"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."
She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said, "Really?" "Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch over all people walking by."
She nodded her head yes, and smiled.
With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to spread, then she said "I am."
"I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.
I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things.
She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself. My job here is done".
I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"
She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see me," and then she was gone.
And with that, my life was changed dramatically.
So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always
watching over you.
Like the story says, we all need someone...
And, every one of your friends is an Angel in their own way.
The value of a friend is measured in the heart.
I hope your Guardian Angel watches over you always.
Friday, February 11, 2005
ruler: jupiter
key: optimism
general: great potential often not realized. a happy-go-lucky attitude to life and a careless indiference to the consequences of actions. Enterprise, energy, versality, urge to explore. A srtong idealistic nature. Need to feel free. Open and generous attitude to life.
health: hips, thigh, rhematism.
career: likes a challenge.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
sexy noh! hahahaha
i am excited!!! yeah, baby...
i was curious about my phone (it's cheap, so don't ask about the model) on how do i send the photos to my pc??? for my curiousity, i opened the gallery folders in my phone and tried sending one photo...i was hoping to send the photo through an infrared or sumthing. But siguro because my phone is not that new, it won't transfer photos through infrared. wew.
But there is this thing i found when i tried to send again the photo. whoa! i can send it pala through email!!!...i know my happiness is sooo mababaw lang, hehehe. but yes, i am really excited about this sending thing..and the rate is only P5. yepiiiy!!!
Monday, February 07, 2005
my boo and me...in the bus...on our way to Pampanga...
Sunday, February 06, 2005
what would you do when an enemy strikes like a flood into your life?
enemy is not a person. enemy is never a person. this is one of the many many lessons ive learned when i attended the christian community 10 hours ago. yes, and i definitely agreed to that. people are never our enemy. enemies are the devil. the evil spirit. like that of lust, jealous, envy. they are the enemies in our life. they are the ones detroying our relationship with family, friends, husbands, wives, children and everbody.
Pastor Jo Alfafara was the one preaching the 10 o'clock session.And he focused on the book of Isaiah 59:19, that says:
"When the enemy strikes on you. the SPIRIT of the LORD will lift up the standard against it..."
He talked about some examples of how we deal when evil strikes on us. One example is the Angels, as our weapons. Weapons to wash away the enemy, the evil spirits. Angels are everwhere. We can call them when we need help. We can cast away evil with our angels beside us. They are our guardians. In Revelations 10:11, "angels are powerful weapons..."
Another term for weapons is DEFENSE. We can cast away devil with our defense. One example is the Shepherd. Imagine a group of sheeps without a shepherd. What would it be without a guide? They say senses of sheep are dumb. Because sheeps are short-sighted, they can't see far enough, they can't sense an enemy. that's why they're dumb. They just say, 'blaaah', when they are in need of help..say 'blaah' when they are hungry. So they really need a shepherd. To guide them and for them to follow. The shepherd is their defense when in times of trouble. They just say 'blaaah' and a shepherd is there to help them.
Another example is the flag. Remember the movie, braveheart? During the war, william (mel gibson) carried their flag (with two other flags) for their soldiers to follow. Now i know why they carry three flags in a war. And they carry them in line, imagine!. It's for the soldiers to follow if they still go for the chaos or surrender. If they carry only one, there's no other left for their defense... hmm...that's why... =) And also, It inspire them, when they follow it. It's the source of their prospective(banner of an army),. And lastly, its the banner over LOVE.
So what do we do when an enemy strikes like a flood in our life?
The answer is within us. The spirit within us. We fall back to our spirit and push that spirit out against the enemy.
The Spirit of the Lord will lift up the standard against it.
Friday, February 04, 2005
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody is watching
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
i was bloghopping and something strucked me when i read that valentine's day is cuming...
yeah. 13 days from now. where would i be in that day?
well, it falls on monday. so at 3pm i will be at the office though...working. i dunno what my b..'s plans are. and i don't add valentine's day to my 'what-to-do' plans in my calandar. so, where would we be then?
now, i remember the movie "My Sassy Girl". If you haven't watched the movie, better buy some pirated cd an watch it now!!! it's a great love story movie. I just remember kase what the boy, in the story, planned to do on her birthday...
Her birthday. If I prepare nothing, she may murder me. I have a good idea. Before going to the service. I worked in a theme park.So this is my plan...
At midnight, i'll be alone with her in the park. It'll be completely dark around us. One by one the lights to the merry-go-around flick on. I raise my arms up there, and her birthday song starts. Then all the lights turn on and it moves. There's fireworks, too. Isn't it fantastic? She'll be thrilled. I gave 200,000 won to my friends working there.
But her birthday end up horrible because they were hostaged by an ex-soldier rebel. That's why i don't want to plan for an occasion such as valentines...or birthdays... because i don't want it end up nothing. opposite my expectations... anyway, basta, i will wait na lang for that day to cum and come what may!!!
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