in my Silent Lucidity

been out of myself for the past days. you see, my previous entries were so not me. i'm not that type of person. not my way of writing. not me.

i've realized that after i've gone to visit that little thing in the picture... and who's that? my ever flip, kalog, so-like-me pamangkin mikaela djennel!

hehehe...she's one hell a lot like me! pictures and videos shows it all (will be posted soon). my sister always says that baka naman anak ko siya..haha!

anyway, i'm not sure if i'm really back to life. but m sure it's only in this blog. =)

With all its overused redundancy, was reminded again: I'm not perfect and neither are others. thus a calling for forgiveness and acceptance ..the thought that there is but one life to live echoes in my head.. to fill what's empty and empty what's full.

..I noticed when I become stressed or sad, I crane my face to the sky or ceiling in silent. Then I feel better because I don't feel so alone.

Thank you.

the best less-grease-peanuts from Marisol.

Nutrition Facts:
Calories 190
Total Fat 15g
Cholesterole 0mg
Sodium 370mg
Total carbohydrate 7g
Protein 7g

Jovie...our eldest sister will arrive on Sunday to spent Christmas with me! hehe kidding...She'll be having a 6-month training here in Manila and will be staying at some hotel in San Juan.

Happy weekend earthlings!

Hubby is addicted to videoke nowadays :-)
...wishing i was there to share the moment..hehehe

Anything we can lose, we become anxious about it - because of our fear of diminishment.


It rings truth.

I have fears of losing people who I care about, whether it is physically or emotionally. I'm fearful of being cast in unfavorable light, becoming forgotten. At times I'm selfish and vain, wanting to be endeared and understood - but who doesn't desire these things?

A rapidly fading semester has droned through series of notorious motions: waiting, contemplating, being confuddled, being bitter. If I had to delicately pinpoint a recurring theme with my finger, it'd be feeling mostly empty. The disease called Nothingness needs to be repelled by converting this drought into a construction for the classic "stronger, independent self." But my other, much weaker side cannily whispers, you need the antidote of warmth!

I am given unconditional love. But I suffer from certain blindness.. and still mull over obscure, impermanent affection.

..And then I was asked, What do you put your priority on? Who you are or what you have?

I've just read that visitors should take THREE rounds of the fountain extending their hands into the cascading water. A sort of wishing fountain.

Kaya hindi ba nangyayari yung wish ko dahil TWO rounds lang ako?! Sabi ni Arnel kase two rounds lang. ngek..

I"m defiinitely going back there and take my one last round and wish more...:)

Globe has got to find a way...

I am an avid fan of Globe since i got a phone. But shifted to Smart because their signal is poor inside the server room. And now that im near the office of the avp, and it's sooo cheap calling to globe line from abroad, i shifted back and be loyal again to Globe.

However, myGlobe internet connection sucks!!! grabe...i've been trying to connect to their wap site pero walang nangyayari! I even changed the network settings of my treo using their procedure ek ek, pero nada pa rin..how come? i even set the fallback to myGlobe WAP pero wala wala wala! connected sya pero sending lang...how come?

called customer service 100 times already. poor agents trying to solve the problem. nasira daw kahapon yung wap site nila, itry ko daw i turn-off and on baka hindi lang nagrefresh yung phone ko. or baka walang reply from the wap site i visited. huh? pede ba yun? ive been trying to connect since ive got the sim!

and wala naman problem if i used a smart number ah...hmm

anyway, im just pouring out here. pawala ng sama ng loob...

really disappointed.

Arnel and i was amazingly satisfied with the free Gold Class tickets atVivo City, Harbour Front, from Citibank.

grabe...sulet yung punta namin sa Harbour Front na sobrang layo. We picked 'The Guardian' movie starring gwapo Kevin Costner =) sulet talaga! kayo, bili na kayo ng gold class tickets...relax ka na may blanket pa! pwede ka matulog doon. nakakahiya nga lang kase 24 seats lang lahat. so kita ka pagnakatulog ka. kakahiya..=)

hehe forgive my ignorance but it is really awesome! di ko alam kung bawal digicam doon kaya we took pictures outside na lang...=) but this is what it's look like: